It's like I have been living with blinkers on , well actually my head has just constantly been bent down over my work and I've forgot to look up !!!
My life has turned into something I really don't recognise !! In the pursuit of trying to create a successful creative business and live a dream that I have had for a very long time , I have neglected some of the most important parts of my life . I have had to take stock recently as the realisation hit me that I feel I've lost myself , I think the thing that really got to me the other day was when my 12 year old told me that I don't smile anymore and he was worried about me . My children shouldn't be worrying about me I should be worrying about them . I don't think it helps that I've not had a break in a very long time ( or a family Holiday in 5 years ) and money is very very tight , as it is for soooo many families not only in this country but abroad too . But after my next couple of events I am having a couple of weeks off to recharge my batteries and touch base with everyone and everything in my life which I feel I have neglected . Hopefully I will start smiling again and look up and notice the world around me . I need to live my life and not just exist !! I have given a lot of thought about my work life balance and getting this right is going to be my main priority in future . I also need to learn to cut myself some slack as I do push myself very very hard .
It feels good to be blogging tonight I do so miss it when I don't get time to pop by ( this is one of the things I will be changing ) .
I'm very busy and excited at the moment as we build up to our Christmas Open Studio which takes place this Sunday ( 8th December) & Sunday 15th December , then that is it I'm having a much needed break .
But if your in the Skipton area why not pop in and see us , I promise I will be smiling !! ( upstairs in Coopers cafe-bar , 6-8 Belmont st , Skipton , North Yorkshire, BD23 1QQ ) I will have my Felt Christmas Decoration kits for sale as well as other lovely handmade goodies .
Here's a peek of some of the things on offer !
It feels good to have popped by and now I'm off to bed for some much needed sleep as I've been working until midnight for the last couple of weeks and working weekends too ( not good I know !).
Thanks for popping by and I hope I have not depressed you and you will pop by again .
ta ta Tracy xx